January 10, 2020. The last day I worked as a nurse. My nervous system felt fried, depression and suicidial ideations had taken over, and I had just gotten back from a trip to Bali where I told myself I loved myself for the first time. I realized then that I needed to leave nursing. I thought I would finally do a 6 month solo traveler trip and "figure out my life". January 14, 2020 I jumped on a plane to India. I think you know what happens next. Plans change when you are locked down in India. My world travelling stopped in India, and I stayed there for 5 and a half months while the world fell into fear and chaos. I spent 21 hours a day locked in a hotel with a few other world travelers from Amsterdam, Germany, Sweden, and a lot of local Indians. We made the best of this situation. I learned a lot of my ailments were psychosomatic, and during many hours of deep practice with a Yogi Teacher, I learned so much about myself, my inner world, my psyche, and how the body really controls the mind. I learned body work, energy healings, sounds healing, and a new yoga therapy. I gained so much knowledge, and in the process of intense bodywork, breathwork, and yoga, I was finally able to confront my mind. Some would call it an awakening, some would call it psychosis, possession, or kundalini awakening. While it feels like a combination of all of these things. Seeing the world a different way in India was what I needed. I questioned my mind, and realized the stories it had been telling were false. Whole narratives and branches broke off and fell away. I could read other's minds, feel other's feelings, hear other's thoughts. How long has this been happening? How many times do we pass by someone and a thought pops in our head, and we berate that thought, thinking it was us? From what I know, thoughts are just energy, they don't belong to us. When they trigger something inside of us, then it's time to look at our inner workings. Otherwise, they really are just thoughts floating by.
I finally came back to Canada at the end of June 2020. My grandmother broke her left hip and I was fearful for her outcome. (sidenote, she's still alive and turning 99 this month!). My nervous system in more shock after being in India for so long, not healing my time working as a nurse, and after being possessed, having an electrical awakening, a previous burnt out nervous system, and getting extremely sick from giardia and dysentery and scabies in India. I came home and I was even worse off. I moved to Nelson, BC for a long 4 year healing journey. I worked with the Akashic Records (I am an Akashics Records reader if interested ;), and this not only helped to clear the giardia, it helped to clear some victim trauma. A year and a half later, I was still suffering from scabies. The victim part of my mind, and the (then turned vegan) did not want to hurt anything. The doctors told me twice I did not have anything going on with me, except acne or irritation, so I tried different creams to no avail! The night-time scratching and my nervous system couldn't take it! I wanted to die yet again! The lack of sleep, the itching, my nervous system in dire need of repair!
One of my room-mates was going for acupuncture, so I found someone in my town with a name I trusted (David) and booked my session with him. This man was incredible! He could feel my aura, and I knew he could feel it too! He did a few acupuncture, craniosacral, and Theta Healing Sessions. He kept showing me a book of Theta Healing and recommended that I should learn it, and find someone to take classes with. He knew I would have an affinity to it. After much hesitation, I finally reached out to a Theta Healer on Vancouver Island and took my first few classes. We started doing a few more sessions. David Knox checked in with my body, and told me to hit the scabies HARD with medication. I had tried other ones multiple times, but this time I used the heavy duty cream! As much as I have a distrust for healthcare and the pharmaceutical companies after having worked for healthcare and been a patient for 10 years, sometimes we need to bring in these helpers. Finding a balance and checking in with yourself for what is needed. Having that discernment. It's not all black and white.
Halleluiah!!! My skin is cured!! Thank you David Knox, thank you Theta Healing, thank you Sam. Thank you to the cream. It's ok for things to die. We are not here to be sucked dry and lived off of. We are not martyrs. We are not hosts. We live in symbiosis with this planet. I eat meat again more reverently. My body needs it, my teeth were hurting. But that's a story for another day.
Fast forward a few more months. I was doing some Theta Healing work with other practitioners. However, I did the course "game of life", leading up to it I ended up with another possession (protect your energy!!!, this is another story as well. Haha!), however I was also still having daily anxiety attacks, and disassociating constantly. Sam did a healing on my nervous system, and after that, my daily anxiety attacks subsided. I was coming back to earth, I wasn't disassociating as much, and I was more grounded. My anxiety had gotten so much better! And after such an extreme burnout, it has taken some time for my nervous system to come back - going into isolation, doing so much healing, but I am proof that you can come back from these things. You can heal and you can live your best life!
I found out that as a very sensitive person, living out in the country, with my animals, husband, and garden is the best and most healing for my nervous system. I have never felt better! I feel vital, I am able to understand and work through my subconscious blocks and triggers with this amazing modality. I got my life back, and I'm living an even better life than ever before! Than I ever could have imagined! I truly think everything happens for a reason, steering us in the direction of our life's purpose and heart's desires.
If you are interested in working with me, I specialize in Theta Healing, and I am here to support you to heal those traumas, uncover those subconscious beliefs, and bring some healing and connection back into your life!! I want you to remember who you are, and live a beautiful life you deserve! Theta Healing really is for everyone, but I find those who are more sensitive tend to really get the most out of it! The sensitives, the intuitives, the empaths. If you feel the call, reach out!
You can book with me at www.sacredhealing.ca
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